Unlike any other new year.....
Have heard people quoting that what you would be doing at the new yrs eve or at the mid night hour would precisely be what you would be doing for whole of the year.
I hope those who said it didn’t mean much of it but only as a joke.
Because if it is so I am now entitled with the responsibility of taking the charge and prove it wrong.
I was precisely looking forward to be with the people I wanted to be with and to feel the way I wanted to feel.
But what actually happened was I spent my time with the people I was meant to be with but did what I was surely not meant to do.
Probably it was the very time in my life that I didn’t feel ecstatic and glad when I was welcoming the New Year.
'Somethings had wrecked
Somethings just ended
And Some are the feelings
Which were never fended
The hurt of the heart
Which never intended
And the road of the life
Which was forever amended'...
Barely having anything to speak but so much to say, I did not know what to think and if it was sane.
Probably I was still feeling the feel and holding the then held.
With the hands folded and closed eyes I thought of everything from starts to skies.
What I felt was:
“Is it me whom I am looking at? Is it actually me?
Why do I look so unlike me , why did I act so not like me, why did I behave like the unusual me……
Is it me or not me?
And the question was to be or not to be”
And so many questions but none answered.
Knowingly or unknowingly I had pledged to look beyond the dismay and welcome what is coming my way. I wowed, if it is meant to be this way then I happily greet it this way.
Life goes on and so does time.
Let me do what I need to, and rest all goes fine ;)
